what do you think it means

Cum on my face little darlin'

2003-02-10T04:25:31Z

So I saw the new larry clark film tonight. It was supremely disapointed. It was all people jacking off or banging thier girlfiend's mom. A porn not yet a film. Damb it! And I paid eight bucks to see it. But I did see Larry Clark and Lou Reed.

patricesux @ 2003-01-21T15:31:00

2003-01-21T20:33:33Z

So...... today I was thinking of how I would describe the way I am feeling. I found that the work "sad' was the best word for it, but sort of by default. I hate the word depressed. It sounds so clihe. It's just a word that gets tosses around like the word "Love" and so few really mean it or even know its meaning. I hate that. I makes me sick to my stomach. Maybe SAD was too generic, but depressed is to sickning. It's an overused word like an overused whore. Old and beat, and ugly.

Oh, How I Wish You Were Here........

2003-01-09T22:03:01Z

we're just two lost souls livin in a fish bowl year after year:
Point youself south and strait on till morning

How it feels to be loved?

2002-12-28T06:22:06Z

How did I get here, to this point? Where I exist exponentianly alone. How did I become this socially diseased? Diseased.

And I still write this when I know that one person is reading it. I think I need someone to read it. To take ownership of it so I don't have to own it anymore. Think about it anymore. Feel sick about it anymore. I don't know..... maybe it's just hard because it's winter. Or maybe it's hard because I make it that way.

They came into my house

2002-12-23T06:06:29Z

So..... last night I went to Brit Pop night at the Otto Bar in baltimore and had an amazing time! I saw people I hadn't seen in years and danced with sexxy men. An infinite moment.

Today I didn't dod much but I went outside tonight and found that my car had been stolen. Someone came into my house went through my wallet, stole my cell phone, and stole my mothers key chain with our house key and both car keys on it. The police were here till about midnight. I knew last night was too good to be true.

I want a mother that sais FUCK

2002-12-18T04:02:21Z

I want.
that's all

The difference between a rut and a grave are the dimensions

2002-12-14T05:37:30Z

graves open the flood gates of love and you never realize how much is there until it smashes you to the foor and you struggle to catch your breath but when you do you don't know it you want it

Zoran and his stuid paper

2002-12-11T21:35:49Z

So...... I have to write this paper and i just can't do it. I have been making attempts at it all day with no success. I just want patrice to get here and for classes to be over. This waiting period is killing me. Or maybe it's all the coffee.
I am going polaroid crazy with my new camera and i think I am addicted. That's right addicted. Can't have cigarettes, shouldn't have coffee, but i don't see the harm in Polaroids. I mean besides the huge hole in my pocket.
Well nothing more to say.........

That's just how it is

2002-12-08T06:46:05Z

"It would be very nice to have a friend again. I would like that even more than a date."

-"The Perks Of Being A Wallflower" by stephen chbosky

NYC's white body bag

2002-12-05T22:05:30Z

Crawl in with me and lets get COZY

The List

2002-12-05T06:51:54Z

things to love about this city
1. the third floor of B&N
2. horrible coffee from the corner store
3. the way the tread wears off your shoes
4. finally and most importantly.... the two steps between the fifth and sixth floor in stair way B in the photo building.

"The Man"

2002-12-03T20:41:28Z

I got a call from Glamour Magazine today. Slightly excited. Want the job. Don't mind working for The Man.

To All My Fellow Nap Lovers: An Anthem

2002-12-03T07:27:33Z

I wanna nap with somebody,
I wanna feel the sheets with somebody,
Yeah, I wanna nap with somebody....

inspired by Whitney

suicide 101

2002-12-01T21:23:38Z

any ideas on an original form of self-mutilation?